Distress

She's been with me from the beginning, right by my side.

keeping me safe she taught me how to survive.

Through the consistant heartbreaks and acts of distrust,

she helped me to swallow the bitter taste of disgust.

Brick by brick we built these walls to keep me protectd
but now I stand improsoned in these walls we've erected

My heart no longer on my sleeve, but locked deep inside

this cold, damp, and solitary, dungeon of my mind.

All that's left is the stories of what used to be.
A dim reflection of the image that once was me.
I hid away any trace of emotion or care

eventually forgetting that a soul was still there.

hiding behind this steel mask, until I forgot who I was

letting go of my concience and capacity to love.

surpressing anything that could make me seem weak.
While practicing my mug making sure I don't blink

But now in this mirror, I see scars from that life.
The blood stains on my name from the felony strikes
I only did what I knew, what it took to survive
but now im left with the baggage of an alternate life
how do I express emotions when I always showed none?
how do I learn how to love when I had no one?
It's like I'm being reborn, and Im starting from scratch,
so forgive me when my trust and my emotion may lack.
She's all I've ever had, how do I let her go,
from then until now she's still all that I know.

But now, I am letting go...

I am putting down my guard inspite of my fears,

releasing the love I've held back all these years
I long to know love for all it can be,
to love someone who I know loves me,
I guess I'm just not as strong I put on to be
awaiting a damsel to come set me free...